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ten things i should have told you when i was sad by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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ten things i should have told you when i was sad

i never could tell if i was in love with you or the feeling i got when i was high with you. sleep was the only form of tranquility. - indecision. - fake smiles. - monotony*. *boredom of sorts i exist without this body in a form you have never touched - that you never believed in and that makes me feel whole. dancing seems such innocent harmless fun you changed albums lyrics artists to future torture. imagining a future with you is a place i felt i never belonged. you showed me i can express myself as unapologetically as you expressed your distaste of the color purple. hazy days remind me of you. i'll sti

ten things i probably should have told you by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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ten things i probably should have told you

i know you hated when we fought but it's the only time i ever felt genuine passion between us i don't think i've ever missed you once, i think i miss the idea i had of you i was okay with you not loving me but what made me feel the need to shred my arms with anger was you whispering your love to another girl when you said "we grew distant," i saw it more as "i want to die more and more each day and you haven't noticed my detachment from life" i believed you when you said you loved me the first time the second time the four hundredth time but the last time was anything but sincerity you were so childish in the sense you thought when i wa

Miss Missing You by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

Self Love by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Self Love

And for no reason, I began to cry. I had nothing to cry about; this is where I am guilty. Flowers are growing where you planted your kisses. Cheeks ache from laughter, and smiles. And love. Am I so selfish that I ache for more than love? What better is there than love; what possibly is causing these rainclouds in both my eyes and my mind? It is my own fault that I broke my very own heart, waiting for the day that I love me, too.

Dandelions Among Roses by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Dandelions Among Roses

Although I am the south and your daisies are the north, my petals are no less than shooting stars, for have you not said a flower is a flower? Tell me then, why must I perish? I try my best at glamour, yet I am still nothing to you compared to roses. Tell your gardener to go; we are not friends, he and I. His hands are the devil, and his jars hold the devil's heart. As summer grows old, he rains the devil's tears among us. Although you may say a flower is a flower, what is a dandelion among a bouquet of roses?

Suicide Note by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Suicide Note

My Love, This world is such an awful place. I'm afraid there is just too much madness in one lonely world that I just cannot comprehend; the way prostitutes look so lovely before faking so much pleasure, oh-so sweet children losing their innocence, the old man I saw eating out alone - how must he feel approaching his wife's grave? I'm afraid I know of no pain of the kind; however, each life invites new pain, new wars. That's all we are these days - the struggles of dealing with madness and war. The greatness with that is with each death is that many less battles to fight. Oh, how many battles could we end with each

Boston by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Boston

Why stay? It's not as if the sun dazzles in a thousand different ways, a thousand better ways. All it does is ferment the sweet flowers that once held the key to my heart, scorch the innocent embrace of what used to be. Boston holds such better promises, comprises such better welcomes. I will not find tears beneath the corners of every street; no memories at the stop sign. Just passersby, looking at yet another broken girl, hoping to make her way in the city of Boston.

Temptations and Desires by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Temptations and Desires

What do you want? ...What do I want? I want to love you. I want to love you like you say you love me. I want to please you, as I am a people pleaser. How could I possibly say no? You're here in front of me, hurting with your life. I don't know who I am - God knows who I am. If only he could reign His truth upon my soul. If only, then I could tell you what I truly want. (...It isn't you.)

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ten things i probably should have told you by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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ten things i probably should have told you

Miss Missing You by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

Self Love by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Self Love

Dandelions Among Roses by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Dandelions Among Roses

Boston by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Boston

Temptations and Desires by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Temptations and Desires

Aren't You Glad You're Not a Giraffe? by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Aren't You Glad You're Not a Giraffe?

Aren't you glad you're not a giraffe? Ever since I was born, everyone just laughed. I always trip and I always fall, But worse than that, worst of all, When I was born, I hit my head. "He won't grow at all," the doctors said. So here I stand, a giraffe who's undersized. I'm short and fat, and to none am I a prize. When I stretch my neck to eat the trees, My head won't reach the lowest of leaves. No one else helps; all they do is stare. "Haha, you're so weird!" Life isn't even fair. So one day when I was all alone, I decided to go out, all on my own. I slowly crept from our large herd Without even a single goodbye as a word. I ran away from

Brave by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Brave

The struggles of his own disappear beneath his smile, replaced by sense of unknown hope. Giving up is an option, a door always open, but he glances through, and quickly moves on. An optimist? He is not. No, he does not see light through cracks of darkness, does not see sunshine in the black of the night. This man knows where to search, though, how to find sunshine after tornadoes reined their fury. Many doubts, many insecurities, as if their stones meant something when spoken by poison lips set out kill. He will not defeat, nor be defeated. Rocks may be thrown, sticks and stones, but come morning, he's no longer deaf

What About Love by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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What About Love

Sometimes the beginning feels just like the end. And the end feels just like the beginning. It seems this small wave of bliss is a never ending tsunami. How did this happen? my father would ask, a hint of anger in his voice. Vulnerability is the biggest weakness. I feel so weak, yet I feel so powerful. How do two opposites coincide? What is it that draws us to our exact parallel? What to call this feeling... There is no word to describe it; ecstasy, intoxication, euphoria, maybe even madness. There all somewhat it, but not quite. How do you describe a feeling that doesn't exist? It's greater than the intelligence of the keenest

Fetish. by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Boston by xXDearxMyAngelXx, literature

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Boston

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Artist // Student

Feb 3, 1994
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Deviant for 13 years
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How to Train Your Dragon, Alice in Wonderland, Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs, Superstar

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House, Adventure Time, Supernatural

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xXDearxMyAngelXx

Jan 22, 2013

HELP PLEASE. THANK YOU, LOVELY

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I would REALLY appreciate it if you could help me. It would take like, 30 seconds of your time. Go to this http://thewritersmeow.deviantart.com/journal/poll/3420717/ and vote for my poem "Boston." It would be really nice. c: Inform me if you do so I can say thank you!

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xXDearxMyAngelXx

Dec 29, 2012

Struggles.

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Having a rough life lately.. I relapsed on cutting after almost 6 months of being clean. I've been starving myself and purging what food I do eat. And worst of all, the binging. It makes me feel horrible. .-. I think I just need someone for support. Jesus, I need to get skinny...

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Nov 27, 2012

MEME: I am worth $3205

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Natural Hair Color [ ] Redhead – $80 [x] Brunette – $75 [ ] Blonde – $50 [ ] Black – $15 [ ] Bald – $5 [ ] Other – $0 Total So Far: $75 Eye Color [ ] Blue – $100 [ ] Green – $75 [ ] Brown – $50 [ ] Hazel – $25 [x] Other – $15 Total So Far: $90 Height [ ] Over 7′ – $200 [ ] 6'8? to 7′ – $175 [ ] 6'0? to 6'7? – $150 [x] 5'5? to 5'11? – $75 [ ] 5'0? to 5'4? – $45 [ ] Under 5′ – $25 Total So Far: $165 Age [ ] 30 to 40 – $100 [ ] 25 to 30 – $75 [ ] 20 to 25 – $50 [ ] 18 to 20 – $25 [x] 0 to 18 – $15 Total So Far: $180 Phone [ ] Touch screen – $200 [ ] Touch & slide-flip – $175 [ ] Slide – $150 [